UNTITLED

I'm alone here tonight.

I just let myself trapped in my thousand emotional.

My body is so weak inside, ate my dinner alone, laying on my bed with a heavy head & my heart beat keep on faster.

What on your mind Cla?

There are thousand things that appear in my head.

The best question that i'm asking to myself -->> Why all these things happened too quickly?

I felt like yesterday i saw everything around me just perfect. I saw myself with a pretty sweet smile on my face. I saw myself live her life without worries. 

But the truth is that was yesterday. 

YESTERDAY, there are too many things that i have learned from you. About one thing to everything.

I got something to share here.

This thing was trapped for too long there. The thing that i thought since i was kid.

"DEATH"

For me, God has the power on us. He can take away what we got today just in second, minute or hour.

I don't know why i had this kind of weird feeling since i was kid. 

You know what, i'm the type of person who like to wrote something on letter. Whenever i feel that i will die tomorrow, i will wrote letter which is I will told everything about me there. 

Am i weird or my instinct is true??

Fuh~

I don't know. But the thing i want to share here is about what we had done with everything around us.

I have learned to appreciate everything around me either it bad or good. Its really make who we are today.

Janganlah kita menyesal tak menghargai apa yang ada setelah kita kehilangan semua itu.

Kerana apa yang ada pada hari kemarin tak akan sama seperti hari ini. Setiap apa yang kita alami tidak sama seperti apa yang kita alami sebelum ini. 

Mungkin ini lah fitrah manusia, Apabila kita merasai kehilangan sesuatu tue, baru kita tahu betapa nya kita merindui sesuatu yang telah hilang.

And today, I still remember clearly how was my granny hold her last breathe. I don't know how to describe that kind of feeling. If you ever experienced it, then you know. Oh my God. I can't stand the pain. I can't stand my tears. And finally I'm crying. That was the worst feeling that i ever had before. I hate to see people that i love will leave me someday. I don't want to let them go. But what can i do anymore if that was God's willing. 

I have to accept the things that i can't accept even though it really hurt me.

I'm afraid to lost someone that i love in my life. And now i keep thinking about that.

I'm really afraid right now. I don't know what my life could be if i will lost them in my life.

I don't want to imagine about that.

Lord, please take care of the everyone that i love in my life. Please bless them in whatever they do & wherever they go. I love them so much. :(

And me too. I'm afraid of it. This feeling have been trapped here for too long. I hate it. Really :(

I still have much things to do. I have my dream. 

As i promise to myself, I will take care of my health. I will stay healthy. 

Kita bukan minta yang buruk akan terjadi tapi Tuhan akan jauhkan semua yang jahat drpd kita.

Saya percaya. I believe.

AMEN.

Last but not the least, nothing is remain forever. What you got today maybe it will be what your lost for tomorrow. Anything can happen anytime. Be the best as you can do but remember it's so okay not to be perfect. At least, we had done our very best in our life. 

♥ Live LIFE to fullest

♥ Appreciate everything in your life

♥ PRAY ~i believe the power of Prayer~

♥ Be the best as you can be :)

With Love,